Loneliness

I am lonely here. I miss your accompaniment so much. And now when it comes to the time that you want to come to my place, I ruined it. I regret so much.

I knew that I don't handle your emotion well recently. And your emotion is more fragile than the time we were in Taipei. A little miss of attention, a little misspoken words can infuriate quarrel.

Right now all I want to have is to have you in my arms. So I am going to buy you an air ticket in Saturday , Feb 27.

All I need is to do what I need to do.

 

What good have I done today?

1. I know that I need to cherish babe. She is my love. And I want to spend my life with her.
   
2. I study car knowledge test, I do research on car.
   
3. I do yoga.
   
4. I don't play computer game.
   

What bad have I done today?

1. I feel lonely.
   
2. I don't study or finished my PowerPoint talk.
   
3. I didn't have chance to talk to her.
   

What good can I done tomorrow?

1. Talk with babe.
   
2. Finish presentation.
   
3. Do some exercises.
   
4. 
   

What bad should I avoid tomorrow?

1. Be rude to babe.
   

dream a dream

you cannot avoid yourself.

i think writing is a way to look at myself. Everything stops. And you write without thinking too much. You don't want to feel rush when you write. And don't think too much when you write down the first draft. you just keep on writing , put out all the stuff that you have in your mind, whether you know is conciously or unconsiously.

I think about my life here, sometimes. I don't have much friend here, and the friend i have, we don't have much fun together. It is kind of boring. Cannot go back to the sweet old time right?

i always think i want to change. always think about what to do next. But most of the time i didn't success. i may do it, but i will have prosponed it for a long time that i cannot bear with it anymore. Just like buying car, learning car, finding advisor, working out body. I hate that kind of feeling. why can't i be the man who is more proactive?

I played too much game. I spend too much time browsing deal site to catch a deal. I didn't spend much time thinking my future.

I would rather that i die. no. it is not good. i can still do it better,right? I never thought i can have a love relationship once some time in high school. I have a very low self-image at that time. Maybe this affect me when i choose advisor.

but anyway, here i am, as a 3rd years phd student in united states, i once have a dream for my love, my scienctific endeavor and life and i will still pursue it.

1. learning labview: why? 1. design experiment better. 2. has a industrial needed skill. 3.

2. learning: should study nonlinear optics more because it is rather relevant.

3. other things:

a. experiment: frequency upshift.

不要再浪費時間。

每一天的努力都會是未來事業的基石。每一天的努力讓我離畢業更近。

不要求快。慢也許更快。

face the world, dude

i believe that the only way to learn something is not just a passive action. It is an passive and active action. We listen and read the instruction, think about it, practise it, exam it. If we wrong, we read and ask for help and do the whole procedure again. it is like a spiral ladder.

Equation and ideas in the book mean nothing until we practice it, giving the knowledge a life of its own.

Right now your crisis is no friend. This is something not possible for you to solve by just ignoring it. Playing game, watching tv shows to pass the time? No way! I feel bad thinking about passing time. For me, time is just like money.Even more so, it is more precious than money because you cannot regain it once you lose it. You have the same time as other people do. It is a fair capital for everyone on the earth.

Right now i will stand against my owned bad habits and start to correct them. Let me face all the things i reluctant to do. I do as quick as possible.

make yourself happy!

梦想

我的梦想。

好久没有想这个问题了。

大学的梦想，考上美国的研究所。 完成！

大三的梦想，交到一个女朋友。完成！

到了研究所，反倒是没了梦想。

梦想是：

1. 和宝贝在一起。不管是要结婚还是怎样。

2. 享受人生。这包括享受研究。享受美食。享受旅游。享受一切。

1. i like the style of the book: introduction to physical chemistry by Donald A. McQuarrie. He draw a question as title for each section, therefore gives reader a clear perspective of what to learn. I should try to mimic this method to guide my random study.

The way i study is too random. I am too greedy, trying to finish a book quickly without understanding.

2. still the same thing. to avoid lost track of research, propose a question to solve each time

recipe 11-6

sunday- 烤雞。+番茄+高麗菜 http://www.ytower.com.tw/prj/prj_801/p1.asp?serno=815

monday 烤雞

二 蝦+onions

星期三 魚

四

五

六 粥 +

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