i don't feel good in the relationship. I felt i did too much that i don't have myself anymore.

i think i need to know how to control my emotion. i don't think that i control my emotion well.

Is it really hard to have a peaceful time with girlfriend? Why we quarrel so much, so often? why we cannot treat each other well? 

because we tend to treat people close to us without any covering. if the same thing happened with stranger or not so close friend, we tried to cover our feeling and make peace. 

but the "true" thing hurts. Should we just let it go?

am i a coward man? Babe call me coward man all the time.

She think i am:

1. short.

2. coward.

3. love to use computer.

4. not spending enough time with her. 

5. 

Not happy

i need to be more attentive to my life.

First, when babe is here, i will guide her preparing GRE and TOEFL.

Second, i will try a set up a progress calendar for my research.

我不夠愛你？

我不夠愛你？

我一直在想到底這是什么意思。

1. 過年，過情人節沒有第一個打給你。

2. 沒有打給你父母拜年。

3. 愛情生活沒有情趣，如一潭死水。

4. 你想要有年輕的動力加上成年的成熟。

熱戀期。

所謂的熱戀期就是心里面不停的想著你。想要和你在一起。不管做什么都好。我們有過這樣的時期。

剛剛看了好久以前的照片。好感動。看著你快樂的樣子，讓我覺得為了你做什么都可以。還記得以前為了歌劇魅影的門票翹課排隊。

看著以前的照片，仿佛又回到了大學時代。也許我沒有了那時的沖動和熱情，可是我對你的愛還是一樣多。就像雪化成冰，還是水。

反省，檢視一天的生活。

控制情緒是很重要的。不要急，實行慢活的原則。

早上和貝貝聊天。

下午看書，健身，聽音樂，看電影，整理電腦。

我發現我用筆電時比用桌機來得心寧。

三部纪录片

1. 活佛转世：之前看了一本关于前世今生的书，半信半疑。今天看了这部纪录片，作为一个念科学的人会无语吧。做科学的人不是一定会排斥神鬼，轮回的观念。做科学的人一定要开明。所谓的大胆假设，小心验证。要如何证明这是真的？

2.达赖喇嘛： 这部纪录片让我更了解了西藏是如何被迫害成今天。

3. 大麻：最让我意外的一部片。完全颠覆我对大麻的想法。更让我了解到这世界背后的运转。我想我一定有很多成见被媒体和政府塑造。

英國一家公司調查了女性在情人節在意的事。男性朋友要是能避免掉這些大忌，就可以平安的度過這一年一度的情人節了。

首先，跟女伴一見面，就得先稱讚一下女伴的穿著打扮，英國有六成二的婦女非常在意先生或是男友對自己外表的欣賞。另外，跟女伴在一起也得常看著著對方的眼睛。

情人節吃大餐要注意，手機關機，千萬別看別的女人。吃完飯趕緊付帳，因為，雖然是二十一世紀了，女人還是喜歡被請，不習慣各付各的，當然更不願意掏錢請男友嘍。

另外，要是能在情人節送上女友一張情人卡那就更理想了。

哭了…… (评论: 愚昧年代 The Age of Stupid)

哭了…… (评论: 愚昧年代 The Age of Stupid)

things you should learn

1. do things according to schedule. I believe it will benefits me. Life should be balance. 

2. have a usual routine for exercise.

3. what to write about? live with conscious. know what are you doing now.

diary

1. i find out that my consuming habit starts from browsing net. Because most of the place i go online is about deal, hifi and computer. If i stop getting those info, stop consuming them, then i can stop my desire.

2. i felt lonely. I really wish babe is here with me. 

3. tomorrow is a new day: what i want to accomplish:

a. have a good talk with babe.

b. read relationship book.

c. study atomic physics.

d. stop browsing net. 

e. let us finish all books, musics and movies in my hard drive before i download more.

diary

i start a quarrel with babe. I shouldn't said bad to her, even though you don't mean it. Watch my mouth.

Today i still cannot find THz. This is a test of how you solve problems. You need to identify them and solve them, one by one. This is how you learn and progress.

I will stick with my schedule more from now on. I don't want to have that kind of regret feeling of wasting time. 

car driving

Today is the first day i drive my car on real road!
Several things that can be improved:
1. look at mirrors every 10 seconds. I drive too close to right side.
2. slow down when turn.
3. need to practise parking.

diary

今天是我第一天學車。很開心踏出這一步。發現其實不難。加油。我要多開多練習。

"一個人首先要做的，就是認識自我，明確自己要做什么。有了自知之明，就會自尊自愛，自修其身，不會多管閑事，想不該想的，做不該做的。" 柏拉圖
貌似容易，做起來卻好難。
難在哪里？
難在于人擺脫不了自己是一個動物。是動物就有動物性。就像要吃好，住好。想要繁衍后代。
權利，財富。其實只是人類動物性的產品。


我要做什么：
1. 我要經營好感情。
和你分享-http://www.wretch.cc/blog/s861437/1864460

我們遠距離好久了。有時候在一起，會忘了為什么要在一起。遠距離是一個考驗，考過了就代表感情基礎好。
我現在想，如果我們這么久的遠距離還可以在一起，那表示我們會走到永遠。

2. 做好研究。

3. 做個好人，不管是對家人，朋友或是周遭的人。

4.

what i have done

I clean up.

I read papers and get some new ideas.

I finally asked somebody to teach me driving.

What i should have done:

1. Asked somebody earlier.

2. keep a more stable schedule.

3.

diary

Follow Benjamin's daily schedule: meditation at the end of day.

Questions to answer:

"What good have you done today?"

1. Not quarreling with babe. 

2. Fix laser.

3. get into detail about titling. 

4. determined to learn car. 

5. sleep before 12.00.

not so many though. 

up in the air

It is a good movie.

It talks about firing people, relationship with people, especially marriage and in a broader sense, purpose of life.

The strongest feeling i have is that in some sense, i am just like the flying guy, with no much friends. 

But i do love babe, and need her accompaniment. 

I don't like isolation. I don't like it. 

" My purpose now is my kids, my wife and my family." This is the message of the movie. And my motto too. 

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