new year

writing makes me calm.
Get robbed. Need to stay alert.
It makes me think about fear. Fear is not something you face now, but what you cannot anticipate. 
I like typing on a mac. Word looks beautiful.

review

1. what i don't want to help her?
2. wake up too late. I need to be at lab before 9.00 a.m.
3. If nobody organize the seminar, organize it. If you care, say it out loud. do it.
4. I need to put my effort into writing the paper and more thinking. Your mind cannot be at two place at once. You need to concentrate.
5. No procratination is good.
6. Give thanks and compliment freely.
7. Decide for her. Listen to her need and plan for her. She likes you to decide for her.
8. I will sort out a list of things we would like to do during this holiday season and I will plan it.

i don't feel good in the relationship. I felt i did too much that i don't have myself anymore.

i think i need to know how to control my emotion. i don't think that i control my emotion well.

Is it really hard to have a peaceful time with girlfriend? Why we quarrel so much, so often? why we cannot treat each other well? 

because we tend to treat people close to us without any covering. if the same thing happened with stranger or not so close friend, we tried to cover our feeling and make peace. 

but the "true" thing hurts. Should we just let it go?

am i a coward man? Babe call me coward man all the time.

She think i am:

1. short.

2. coward.

3. love to use computer.

4. not spending enough time with her. 

5. 

Not happy

i need to be more attentive to my life.

First, when babe is here, i will guide her preparing GRE and TOEFL.

Second, i will try a set up a progress calendar for my research.

我不夠愛你？

我不夠愛你？

我一直在想到底這是什么意思。

1. 過年，過情人節沒有第一個打給你。

2. 沒有打給你父母拜年。

3. 愛情生活沒有情趣，如一潭死水。

4. 你想要有年輕的動力加上成年的成熟。

熱戀期。

所謂的熱戀期就是心里面不停的想著你。想要和你在一起。不管做什么都好。我們有過這樣的時期。

剛剛看了好久以前的照片。好感動。看著你快樂的樣子，讓我覺得為了你做什么都可以。還記得以前為了歌劇魅影的門票翹課排隊。

看著以前的照片，仿佛又回到了大學時代。也許我沒有了那時的沖動和熱情，可是我對你的愛還是一樣多。就像雪化成冰，還是水。